I have something to admit. I want to be independent and self-sustained because I am terrified of having a job. For me, it is not only fear of fear. Having a 9-5 job makes me nervous for real.
What is wrong with me? Is anybody experiencing something similar?
Yes! I have been in charge of my own schedule for a long time and the thoughts of going back to not being able to choose when I work and who I work with make me anxious and reluctant to make any serious attempts and re-joining the corporate workforce.
I understand. I was scrolling jobs yesterday and thinking how much bureaucratic enslavement, wasted time on meetings, and team politics I would have to suffer when taking a regular job.
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